Let It All Out!

I feel it’s time for me to let it all out

And share a little with those what my struggles were about 

I no longer want to hide the true person I was made to be inside

And wear a mask and put on a smile

For several years I’ve struggled with mental health

So I’m sharing my journey to hopefully help someone else

Sometimes it was easy to disguise my true feelings inside

While many times it’s been a struggle and difficult to hide

Some years ago I was on a gruelling rollercoaster ride

After an accident that changed my life and things inside my mind 

Everything looked bleak, foggy and grey

I never thought I would live to see another day

A fierce battle raged in my mind

Some days were so dark it felt like I was blind

The pain was intense and it was lonely in the dark

I didn’t know where to turn or where to start

Some days I felt nervy, anxious or sad

It was hard to switch off when things inside made me feel bad

But I wouldn’t have it any other way

The simple things in life help me get through each day

Then there were days I was feeling high It felt like I had wings so I could fly and reach the sky

Writing poems helped me when I couldn’t sleep to get my thoughts out

And share with others a little of what my struggle with mental health is about 

Manic depression or Bipolar disorder as it’s now called

Is just a label and doesn’t mean much to me at all

I’ve learned it’s better to speak out and take a stand

And thankfully these labels no longer define who I really am

It was a bit easier when I was told I had a nervous breakdown 

This helped me start to get myself off the ground 

To make it through I had to push through the pain

And learn to start all over again

Health they say is your wealth 

It hasn’t been easy and hard not to focus on myself 

Taking small steps forward and one day at a time 

Were some of the best things that helped my troubled mind

I’m forever grateful to those who know me best

And helped me get through this scary test

My faith in God has helped me stay on track

He delivered me and with His help I haven’t looked back

There are many people hurting and going through the same

Why do we have to hide our pain or feel shame? 

Fear is the main thing I guess

Cause we don’t want others to see our mess

Maybe things are dark right now and you are really feeling blue 

And don’t know where to turn or what to do

Don’t be afraid to...LET IT ALL OUT..............of you!

Until you get your BREAKTHROUGH. 

Leanne x